Still Searching for Acceptance? Trust Me, You're Not Alone on This One
"and in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths." Prov 3:6
Basically- he won't make them easier, but he'll make them worth the trip. -Tanaya
"A changed heart seeks praise from God, not from People." Romans 2:29 (paraphrased)
Just like you, I struggle with acceptance (or the lack thereof). Some days I'm okay with being an outcast, other days I'm a little emotional. But...does being accepted determine your value?
Let's talk about it...
Since I've struggled with this for many years, I've learned a thing or two about acceptance. It is an insecurity. Quite frankly, not being secure in oneself enough to not be bothered if you're accepted or not. But with that, why is acceptance such a huge part of life?
I believe there is something that God put in us that longs for that confidence and attachment, that we search everywhere else for it but from him. Or, if you're like me, we ask him for it but get distracted by what we see in the world.
Take me, for example. I'm going to be open and honest here. I know some wonderful people that have started businesses, and I support their businesses 100%. I even share their stuff if I happen to purchase or post about a local business. But, I can't help but feel a little doubtful of my own business when I see everyone else thriving but me. I told my sister recently that I admire her so much, I wish I could create half as well as she does.
But who told me that I couldn't?
I really had to go into prayer about this one because I was basing my creativity on whether someone read my writing, on whether I was accepted in vendor events, whether I sold a lot of my shirts I design, whether people share my business online and by word of mouth, and whether my own family supported me.
I base(d) by worth on how other people valued me.
So, I thought to myself and prayed to God about this. What is it that makes us lose focus and zoom in on how someone else's life is succeeding, but not appreciate our own successes (no matter how small)? If three people read a blog post, that's three people that took their time to read! That's an accomplishment! Yet, it doesn't feel like enough.
But that's it right there, when we know God is going to use our passion to great heights, we tend to want to jump head first without building the foundation needed to get there.
So, I guess my question is this, why am I in a rush? And why does someone else's success and acceptance make me question my own?
Let me say this to you (and this is also for myself), God stamped your name on your purpose, it cannot be erased. So when it comes to God's plan, no matter how many detours you gotta take, it is all to build the character that is ready for the person you will ultimately become.
I don't have a final conclusion or answer besides bringing these to God first and foremost. Since I am still struggling with this, I can only bring what I've learned so far, and what has worked. But right now, at this moment, I'm releasing my grip on what I thought I wanted (acceptance), and letting God take over.
p.s. don't die with your gifts still inside you, use them NOW.